Monday, November 23, 2015

"Grief"

And then there was one.
In a million possibilities
There was one
Fate
Juxtaposition of the soul
And that was you.
Red sunrise on this black horizon of me
I had to let some old ideas go
To let you singe me
Tan me that deeper shade that communicated to the world I loved you.

And then there was one.
Moment upon moment 
Sitting in silence with walls closing
Yet
Expanding infinitely
Shrinking me to a poppy seed
Amongst what now seems like an endless desert;
Moment upon moment
Of the surf's teasing my thoughts
As the loss of you slapped my shores
Drawing bits of me into those unknown depths of sorrow
Reshaping my topography
Muddling my borders
While my memories prayed no storm would come to wash them away.

One
Me, myself, & I
And the staring at the door
My mind knowing there shall be no return
While my heart holds to hope pure juvenile that at some point it shall be so;
And then there was one,
No,
Two...
Fuck it
A plethora of tears
Personified questions
Undisputed truths
Making this music of sorrow upon my flesh 
As the situation's gravity pulled them increasingly from me.

And then there was one.
Surrounded in black
A shadow of your shadow shadowing me as I felt you hollow next to me and I
Breathed
That I would never inhale you
And how I understood my love for you now more than ever upon remembering that grief like this...

Is the ultimate cost for a love like yours.
©2015clarencecbess

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