Mad Sweat

I'm breakin'
Tweakin'
Freezin'
Sweatin' it out
Wishin' I could go without
The drama
This virus placed in me
This
Need to be

I'm livid
And vivid
In my dreams
Wet
Soaked
In the detoxification
Of my spirit
Drowning in a mad sweat
Too achy to attempt
To save myself
Drinking gallons
Pissing barrels
Shiverin'
Shakin'
Tryin' to hold it still
Keep it together
As the chill creeps out of my mind
Enveloping me
Till I am left a natural set of castanets
Teeth rapping against each other
Producing the music of the damned
Breakin' me
Forcing me to return to the warm pool that waits
Beneath and within...

It's a bitch being sick.
©2010clarencecbess

Girl On A Pole

She swung herself around
And around
And around some more
Giving us a show
Little miss thang
Happily in bliss
With each twirl upon her stage;
I had to laugh
Wondering
If I'd grown up here
Would I have been as playful?
I doubt it
Public
Was not a performance destination
In my mother's eyes...

I laughed again
Hoping the woman
Often glancing my way
Didn't think me crazy;
She smiled instead
And I think we both settled
Into memories and far gone possibilities
Still caught
Twirling around
On our own stages of innocence
Lost in the spotlight of responsibility
Deeming it fine
To just sit and watch
An audience to the evolution of a soul
We just happened to cross
On our way to the great wherever...
©2010clarencecbess

Within

Within shoes and socks
Within shirts and pants
Within hair and flesh
I
Decay
Within reason and thought
Within truth and dreams
Within freedom and chains
I
Question
What exist
Within eyes
And
Within voice
Within fate
And of course
Within choice
Within song and line
The lines
I
Wait in
To spend
What they won't give me
What I've
Earned
That they
Won't give me
What I've
Learned
They won't give we
Within chance
That we
Learn...

Within book and verse
Within praise and curse
Within heart and hand
I
Feel
Within reason
That I
Die
Each time you
Within me
And thus again
We
See
Only to stake mistake
Upon each of our faces
To aid the decay
That exist
But is feared to recognize...
©2010clarencecbess